Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm not faithful in updating this site..but every post i make reveals all I am feeling at such point in my life. I was surprised that some people try to question my own thinking, misinterpret my lines and give unsolicited advices.

After reading the comments of my readers on my previous post, a mixed feeling settled inside me. I smile to those who can understand, I wonder which part confused some, and I'm a 'lil disappointed to a few who gave negative conclusions.

Yes, I can't please every one---this bitter fact I needed to swallow, too bitter that even my chocos can't defeat.

Still grateful for my readers,

Friday, June 10, 2011

--my tell..

The fact that love had been cruel to me in the past left me no choice but to keep it safely untouched for quite a long time. It has become a good reason for me to fail every sign of irresistible emotion.
DIDN'T want to hurt anyone again.
--it's just--
I can't permit my heart to beat longer..
not to any one.
.not anymore..

Yet, God is the wisest..He didn't allow any manto see his own heart-- such that my hand can neither hold nor control its beating. But then, thanks to Him--'coz if He did allow me, I certainly won't discover the entire language of love..

If only He permitted me to control the things I want to happen,


..Right now,I still don't believe in perfect match
..I still don't realize the value of waiting
..I would still search for fake happiness
..I would still hate the past and let it kill me

I still would face ordinary days..
I still would find reason to reject..
I still would envy those in-love..
I still won't accept my self..

and the worst thing of all...


all i can say for now is...

You've shown me the kind of love i never thought existing..
You gave me more than I asked in my prayers..
I still don't have enough to give back..
Please take it as your home..
MADE OF GLASS so please avoid dropping..
it won't be DEAF again 'coz..
you are locked inside..
forgive my clumsiness,
I lost the key..
no chance to escape.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


This song explains what i feel at this very moment..
I do feel this every time i remember you..

I just don't know how to make you feel more special each minute..



"NO matter where life leads us we ALWAYS have each other..


I ♥ ♥ ♥ Y☻U